Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Together with YA

13.12.2013

C-67, Second floor, Lajpat Nagar 2
Shefali, Pranshu, Ashita, Anuj bhai, Shashank
With Anushree.

Life in Mumbai. Subtle amazing things. Memories coming back for Shefali. Amazed at her ability of noticing details in smaller things.
Juggling work and other aspects. How to deal with organizations, staying in touch with YA participants, working out through donation model. A little innovation. Suggestions.
Talk about politics, of AAP emergence, of responsibilities of polity and a hope of making right where we went wrong. Nai talim. Evolution of systems being a part of the system. Our understanding and discretion on media govt conspiracy theories. About education systems, need for revolution in primary levels, is it a simple or complicated question - uniformity of education standards. How it is a central answer to many questions.
Difference of perspectives. How to bridge the gap and who wil do that? Suggestions for YA. Wierd instances of public behaviour and belief. Working through it.
Lunch. Sitting around on the floor. Sharing. A feeling of togetherness with people in the same frequency.
Fruits, serving. Shefali told about finding a course in UK.
Humble. Bright. Sharp. Mature and kiddish simultaneously. Unsparing. Clear. Radical. Principled.
Wrote on card for Kishan bhaiya. Drew a peacock feather for him. Remembered humility, a constant smile and empathy over raw intelligence.
Pranshu accompanying us to metro station. Me saying what's changed for him. A fulfillment, feeling of completeness - doing what one loves.
Medicines for Anushree's boss. In auto with her. Digestive tablets. Mishti doi in greenpark. Metro to Huda city. Return to Vaishali hours late than planned.

Friday, November 29, 2013

Shane Koyczan: Remember How We Forgot



Remember how we forgot?
Remember how no one ever really died in the wars we fought?
Because each gunshot came from our finger tips
And we never really kept them loaded just in case
Because each enemy was a friend and none of it was about oil, religion, or land
It was all just pretend
Remember how we used to bend reality 
Like we were circus strong men
Like our imaginations were in shape then
Like we were all ninjas trained in the deadly art of "did not". 
Like "I totally got you"
"Did not"
Remember how we forgot?
Remember how our parents told us never to look directly into the sun
And how we were their suns [pun on "sons"]
And so we never looked directly into the mirror, in fear that we would go blind
Remember how we used to find any old reason just to call someone we were crushing on
Like we would just pawn off our sense of embarrassment
Buy a chunk of courage that would last just long enough to have us asking them about math and stuff
And how stuff was just stuff
Like I heard you were getting braces, and how braces somehow were and still are kinda hot
Remember how we forgot?
Remember how we all caught mono and out folks would go, "oh the kissing disease"
And our first steps into gangstahood had us saying “mother please.”
Even though we’ve never really kissed anyone
Even though we never did half the things we said we’d done
We just spun yarn like Rumpelstiltskin spun gold.
We told ghost stories never realizing we would one day ourselves become ghosts
Haunting the hallways of schools
Poltergeist, breaking all the rules of silence in the library
But we had no chains to rattle
No voice to battle the fact that we had no vocal chords 
We had only finger nails on chalk boards
We had to scream, shout, and yell trying to tell ourselves what experience can teach is what no teacher taught
Remember how we forgot?
Once upon a time, we were young.
Our dreams hung like apples 
Waiting to be picked and peeled
And hope was something that needed to be reeled-in
So we can fill the always empty big fish bin with the one that got away
And proudly say that "this time, impossible is not an option"
Because success is so akin to effort and opportunity that it could be related
So we took chances 
We figureskated on thin ice
Belief that each slice of live was served with something sweet on the side
And failure was never nearly as important as the fact that we tried
That in the war against frailty and limitation 
We supplied the determination it takes to make ideas and goals the parents of possibility
And we believe ourselves to be members of this family
Not just one branch on one tree 
But a forest whose roots make up a dynasty
So when I call you sis or bro
It’s not lightly
And when I ask you to remember
It’s because the future isn't what it used to be.
So remember now 
Pay tribute to every sacrifice laid upon the altar of somehow
For all the times
Somehow we overcame
Somehow we pushed on
Somehow we’ve gone the distance
And in going there we’ve possessed the freedom to map the uncharted lands of any and everywhere
We are unbound
Six feet above the underground where we will all one day rest
So until then 
Test the limits 
Test the boundaries and borders 
Of the headquarters of potential lay just beyond the world's edge
Let the belief that hope belongs to us all 
Be the pledge you take to make the unachievable as inconceivable as the false fact that we were never here
We were here
And our memories are as dear to us as every slow motion moment or held breath
So remember every instance before death
Every first kiss, first dance, near miss, last chance, yes, no, maybe so 
Let us go the distance once more
Let us remember all the moments that were and were not
Like the point is something we can get and what we can get is what we got
Because all we have is the time between the moments we connect each dot so
Live and remember
Burn like an ember capable of starting fires
Like each moment inspires the next 
Like memories are the context we put ourselves in
So that life becomes the next of kin we need to notify in case of a big bang or extinction level event
Let now be our advent
Let us live like we meant it
Let us burn like we mean it
Because this world doesn't give a shit if we end in a train wreck or a car crash
If our story ends with a dot or dash 
If we were dust or ash
Because all we were is all we’ll be
And all we are is the in-between of so far, so good
So forget every would, could, or should not
Forget remembering how we forgot
Live like a plot twist exist now and in memory
Because we burn bright
Our lights leave scars on the sun
Let no one say we'll be undone by time's passing
The memories we are amassing will stand as testament
That somehow we bend minds around the concept
that we see others within ourselves. 
That self-knowledge can be found on bookshelves
So who we are has no bearing on how we appear
Look directly into every mirror 
Realize our reflection is the first sentence to a story
And our story starts:
"We were here."

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Excerpts from the Romantique's diary

Like an artist who dreamt one day
Of nature's miraculous creations to say
And as he dipped his fingers in paint virgin and pure
Carved the secret ecstasy of his dream inherent in it's lure
And he thus opened his eyes when the painting was done
His love was brilliant as nascent rays of innocent morning sun...

Wish I were the artist who'll be
The one whose eyes are closed to see
A smile, those lips, eyes which look at me
Shall I trace her lips, embrace her cheek
Which end is this love that I so humbly seek
An embrace, a hug, a kiss shall I keep
And closing my eyes, now I fall in love softly and deep...

How do you take care of her, when you know your touch could disrupt the softness of her skin, the purity of her existence. Yet a powerful desire makes every muscle in your body force you intensely towards enveloping her inside your warmth, in the entirety of her completeness.

A look at you, and he shall feel that way. A gentle touch in the softness of those lips, ecstasy in those eyes, a smile which he shall carve, hair which flow down as waves on endless skies, and as your scent conquers an existence which was his once upon a time, he'd hold your hand and pull you close, gently embracing the soft skin by your neck, a little too close, the muscles of his arms strong in unison around your waist and you'd close your eyes in magical ecstasy as he would now flow through you, and be but one...

With darkness around, under the majestic moon we stand. An intimacy so intense, we bathe in the softness of it's moonlight, and as I look at you, I see that beautiful curve by your face shine, a curve that travels down by your neck to those beautiful slim fingers entwined between mine. In the silent darkness of death, this mesmerizing love does stand glowing alive...

It's something to love her catastrophically - as a man hopelessly loves the wind as he drowns deep into the ocean. An inevitable oblivion of simple pleasure, a day to return to dust, when sun shall swallow all beauty of this earth, this rhyme and it's love shall stay alive forever and even more...

Watch the garden flowers as you walk by a sunset's sun to die. You might see me with my sketchbook, smiling at you, as I hold you and to the skies shall we fly...

Saturday, October 12, 2013

Een Inspiratie - Namesh Killemsetty

Namesh looks like a normal 'cool' guy when you first meet him. He would walk towards you and greet with his special big smile. Post that, the usual 'Where are you from?' etc.

It takes maximum 5 minutes after you're done with introduction (etc.), and Namesh would suddenly have begun your odyssey into his stories - stories lived and experienced. Ups and downs not in books, but felt and lived through in the real raw reality of itself.

So he would talk about a day when after depressing work at a job (for which he's extremely overqualified btw), he travels 3.5 hours in a local to his house, and discovers that there's been a robbery. Laptop gone, along with his branded jeans. He still keep kicking and surviving though. Amidst losing 12 kgs on shifting to a new city, being cheated by the company which employed him, and spending most of the time travelling and working stuff he would do in his sleep, he keeps faith. It's as tough as easy it sounds. And you can see that in his eyes.

And so randomly he would mention being selected for a conference by United Nations (one of the three people globally), featured on his University's website, on a newspaper, his experience working on his project, how lucky he would be at times and how proud he is about all of it now. It's impossible to not get awed by extreme levels of down-to-earth humility and compassion to keep living in the real sense of it.

A beer afterwards, you realize a throat sore of talking so much. You realize finding someone who shares that adventurous crazy part of you, and who, unlike you, has really lived it. You start realizing how important THIS time is, and how THOSE are the stories you are going to remember 30, 40, 50 years from now. Not how well that random project you worked on which got x billion dollars to the company (if ever!).

Namesh is a star to be. A star for himself. A star for all of us who are luck to know him personally. A true Inspiratie.

Namesh - The one NOT in Woodland shoes

-K

Friday, September 20, 2013

Klarke, I see you...

The Climb had been rough and he was tired. With bare feet he trudged slowly feeling the heat which soon was to disappear as the sunset was close, almost relishing the friction that scratched his feet as he traversed what was left of the tiny distance that separated him from his beloved... A sight so splendid that it blew him off...
He had reached at the perfect moment, the radiance of the sun as it turned a shade of red losing itself to the expansiveness of the pink skies as it enveloped the mighty mountains...
It wasn't just the visual but the entirety of the experience that had consumed his senses. He lived it as the breeze hit him with intensity, he breathed it ,embracing its essence that had now been ingrained deep within his soul... deep silence reverberating through him. It was an acquaintance known too well,something he felt as he paced slowly through the ghats back at Vanarasi... A oneness came about leaving him absolutely breathless and in sheer of awe of all that was him.
Soon it would be dark and the magnificence that lay in front of him would be gone Its hard to 'let Go' when it becomes a part of you,so essential to your being;a drug to the senses, benediction to the Soul Yet mortals as we are plagued with a fear to hold on.
He felt the pain as he rejoiced the exuberance of a connection felt so profound and it became hard indeed to let go
He was a Romantic, He was mighty...He was strong...
and before the darkness could completely shun all that was his,he was gone... To 'lose it' was the fear and now it was here but as he walked away he realised though its dark and the chimera of his dream was fading, yet in his heart he shall always retain the song...

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Confession : A CRIME I committed

What was it that I could not control that day. That I could see it working, and there seemed nothing I could do about it than let it flow. It was not a reflex action, but what made me strongly feel that it is?
Looking in his eyes, I felt the demon that silently lay within. The demon of selfishness. But the demon was not his, it was mine. His eyes seemed to be a mere reflection of what lay within me, and this observation, devoid of all logic and reasoning, stood there in it's bare rawness confessing a strange truth.

"Yes I bribed him, who the fuck cares?" protested logic. Selfishness? It's not bad. All humans are inherently selfish, and it doesn't matter if I was too.
The gnawing reality lay like a dead body hovering upon me, much aware of the crime, much aware of it's implications - none in quantity, but as a irreparable stroke on the purest element of one's existence - Integrity.

Integrity - the source. Foundations of existence since unrecorded history, relying on a single boulder of symbolic strength. The bribe was not just a forced transaction, it was a scar on my integrity. A moment of lifelessness trapped me into the transition between the conscious and the sub-conscious. I stayed there looking at myself, as if leaving my body and watching me walk away into nothingness.

I still look back and wish it was different. Wish that the moment wouldn't have existed, or else I would have not let it haunt myself so long by just being simple honest. Honest to myself. That is what I shall be. After all, every cloud has a silver lining...

What Goes Comes Back

A simple straight curve, as an abstraction of reality, was ridiculing itself in its daunting darkness. Linear was it meant to be. Linear in all local terms concerning the self, and nothing more around it. With darkness encompassing an incomprehensibly evil halo of that ecstatic blindfold, the supposed odyssey was done with quick confident steps. Exotic were the ways - those evil intentions remote and invisible. Words were no longer  meant to be, but just to be. And thus it lived, travelling as a cursed promise, hovering as vultures over a dead decaying symbol of death. Death not from hate or guilt or greed - but from love - the pure passionate pain.

That mesmerising scent of an unreachable destination gaping into the infinite with its magnificent decaying efficacy gives birth to an unresolved contradiction. Contradiction of the poison at it's source, of a gnawing realization of a painful end, of ending into the nothingness of dark empty void. The curse lived on as a prodigious disciplinary righteousness of being haunted by an ultimate inflection of my own existence.

It all came back. The poison in those veins making them blue, with eyes turning black, and face already paler than death. Drops of rain flowing down deeper into unknown depressions of implicit self-retaliation. The destruction didn't pardon or excuse too proud with it's arrogance - a merciless rage to split the skull open, to reveal what unimaginable force no longer trapped inside would smile it's final goodbye and would bleed till those lips turn white. Till there is pain no more...

Friday, August 16, 2013

Zinda ho tum


Dilo mein tum apni betaabiyan le ke chal rhe ho toh zinda ho tum
Nazar mein khaabo ki bijliyaan le kar chal rhe ho toh zinda ho tum
Hawa ke jhokon ke jaise azad rehna seekho
Tum ek dariyan ke jaise lehron mein behna seekho
Har ek lamhe se tum milo khole apni baahein
Har ek pal ek naya samaa dekhe yeh nighaayein
Jo apni aakhon mein hairaaniya le ke chal rhe ho toh zinda ho tum
Dilo mein tum apni betaabiyan le ke chal rhe ho toh zinda ho tum....

Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai...


Jab jab dard ka baadal chaya
Jab gum ka saaya lehraya
Jab aasun palko tak aaya
Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya
Humne dil ko yeh samjhaya...
Dil tu aakhir kyun rota hai
Duniya mein yun hi hota hai
Yeh jo gehre sanaate hain
Waqt ne sab ko hi baatein hain
Thoda gum hai sabka kissa
Thodi dhoop hai sabka hissa
Aankh teri bekaar hi namm hai
Har pal ek naya mausam hai
Kyun tu aise pal khota hai
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai....

Ehsaas


Ek baat honto tak hai jo aayi nahi
Bas aankhon se hai jhaankti
Tumse kabhi...mujhse kabhi...kuch lavz hai woh maangti
Jin ko pehn ke hoonto tak aa jaaye woh
Aawaz ki baahon mein baahein daal ke ithlaaye woh
Lekon jo yeh ek baat hai...
Ehsaas hi ehsaas hai.
Khushboo si hai jaise hawa mein tairti
Khushboo jo beawaaz hai
Jiska pata tumko bhi hai...jiski khabar mujhko bhi hai
Duniya se bhi chupta nahi...
Yeh jaane kaisa raaz hai.

Yakeen


Pighle neelam sa behta hua yeh samah
Neeli neeli si khamoshiyan
Na kahin hai zameen...na kahin aasman
Sarsarati hui tehniyan...pattiyan
Keh rahi hain ki bas ek tum ho yahaan
Sirf main hoon...
Meri saansein hain aur meri dhadkanein
Aisi gehraiyaan...aisi tanhaiyaan...
Aur main...sirf main
Apne hone pe mujhko yakeen aa gaya.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Gramya Manthan 2013 - Shortest EVER summary of those 10 best days of my life!

Gramya Manthan is about Rural Immersion and intends to give us a first hand experience of village life - people, resources, ecosystem, mindset, problems, and possible rays of hope!
It's entirely managed by youngsters, and the oldest person in the organizing team was 28 years old. Still the team did extraordinary work and the experience we 25 participants had was incredible beyond words can convey!

Initial days involved meeting up with role models-cum-mentors, which included Anshu Gupta and Ravi Gulati, along with networking amongst ourselves. This was the extraordinary part as all of us got to share so much about our lives. It was like the lifeline session exemplified multifold.

After being divided into three groups, each group was allotted a village according to their choice of interest - Education, Livelihood or Sanitation. Each member was to spend 1.5 days totally with a family in the village.
I was in Ganga Deen Nevada village for livelihood, where there is NO ELECTRICITY! Can't share how it feels to walk in total darkness amidst hefty buffaloes, gutter openings, mud and gobar everywhere! But the love and welcome by the family was incredible. Auntyji made me laugh and I felt like it's my second home.

Back to business, we spent the rest 5 days surveying for data, brainstorming on the possibilities, TALKING to people, sharing the possibilities with them, making them join hands and come together. It's one thing to WRITE all this here, and it's totally another to actually LIVE it out there. With villagers laughing at us, it was tough to stay strong and focused, but we became a part of the DEHAT and lived their pain with them.

I had tears in my eyes when I saw the photos on the last day. I had never been to a village, and when people asked me "Aap kis gaon ke hain?" I used to say that I've always lived in a city. But yesterday someone asked me the same question and I replied "Ganga Deen Nevada" :-)

Sunday, July 7, 2013

07/07/2013 - Andreana to Klarke

"Klarke

I do believe in miracles, and it is pure destiny that we met. But falling in love with you was not destiny or by chance, it was not coincidence. It was a story, it was a process, something that was created. Something that grew in my heart - the love for you. Oh love! The Andreana that you meet everyday, the smile that you see on her face, her contradictory innocence and mischief is something even she is discovering for the first time.
Because you bring her closer, closer to herself, like removing layers from her, layers from her soul. Laughing with you stops time and gives a joy which stirs the soul. The sound of your laughter tickles her from inside and makes her feel - "Is he for real?"
I fell for you because I love your laughter. It makes me optimistic. The way you gently look at me, with such acceptance! I just want to sleep on your lap, while you look at me - under your gaze, curled up with your arms. You make me feel so safe. I want to be like a child walking behind you holding your shirt, walking into the dark, fearlessly. I would follow everything you say without asking any questions.
I fell for you because you make me feel protected. Not because you are Macho and muscular (Okay maybe a little :P) but because you are responsible, intelligent and GOOD!
I fell for you because you are GOOD. You bring goodness as you glow with the GOOD.
I fell for your principles and your values. Because you 'think' before doing something. You are sensitive and not just random. You are fearless and strong.
The way that you touch me. I would give anything to fell your hands around my waist right now. My heart skips a beat every time! When you clutch my hands tightly, I want to feel you so strong so that my existence diminishes. To feel your presence so strong that it stays, becomes a part of me, by eroding a little of me to keep you. Kissing you, tasting you is like solving a mystery. Maybe I will know you; know your soul better if I am involved. And yes, celebration, as you said!
Sweetheart, I have fallen in love in these days, and would still keep falling deeper and deeper with time.
I don't want to be scared and don't want you to be scared from our relationship - from us, from me! Because that is what we both are really afraid of. And obviously the uncertainty of the future.
But I know nothing can go wrong between us. Nothing negative can evolve out of pure, pure love. Just trust.
So don't be scared. :-)

Andreana"

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Gramya Manthan - The Beginning

So my first Shatabdi ride, and I was supposed to be all excited about it.
I was. But the reason was not Shatabdi. It was the program I was going to be a part of for the next 10 days.

Gramya Manthan started with a ride in the Ambulance from the station to the RSS School were we were supposed to spend two days. Ambulance? So that they don't spend extra on hiring a cab. Interesting.

We meet up the volunteers, get a short interview recorded, have dinner and take rest for the day, which was quite a difficult task considering the level of anxiety in everyone around.

Day 2, we wake up to expectations of meeting mentors and beginning with the program right away. But the team had other plans. We start the day with dividing people in random groups, having activities which made the child come alive in all of us, pumped us up and gave us a push to open up and share, which was the first level of achievement for all of us.
Next to come was a 'timeline' exercise, called the LifeMap in Gramya Manthan. Give people 10 minutes to think about your life and draw a graph of ups and downs and you'll literally have sweat all over your forehead. It was yet another experience sharing about our lives, and as we sat in a group of 15 people each, a personal space was created and shared in such a pure way that everyone could reflect and be open about their own lives.

The best part about Gramya Manthan so far are the energizers! We're made to do crazy activities so that we don't sleep, and when we're in the peak of energy, the next activity begins.

So Day 2 Activity 2 was dedicated to a Kabir doha which states that he went into the world for searching the bad there, and he could not find any bad in others. Then he searched the bad inside, and he realized his bad was the biggest among everyone else.
The activity was to distribute people in three groups - one group with people who agree to the Doha, second with people who disagree and a third 'confused' group. The 'Yes' group stands on a side, the 'No' on the other with the confused people in between them. Now the 'Yes' and 'No' groups were asked to win over the confused people and the group who convinces most confused people would win. It was shocking to see that in a group of such intellectuals, such differences in opinion could exist. This was the learning that we got - each and everyone of us have different perspectives and opinions, and everyone thinks his is the right opinion, but then it's just a matter of perspective.

We also played Volleyboll, which was quite fun-filled. It rained briefly which was a big bonus as the weather became beautiful and cold enough to calm down our 'roasted' nerves!

Gramya Manthan has been an interesting journey so far and I'm sure with so much more to see, I would have a lot to share with you :-)

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Elishia

Elishia looks at you innocently and smiles, and suddenly life glows bright as the sparkle in her eyes infects you deep inside, and you’re too moved in that instant to absorb the intensity of her vibrations all at once, so you smile back a silly smile and you know how impossible it is to look away. But then she looks away herself, and the painful pleasure that dawns upon you makes you realize the fallacy of conceptual beauty you’ve known till that point of time. That how a delicate smile could disillusion age-old concepts of love and compassion established by the wise and the old, and establish forth a new meaning behind the youthfulness of the beauty in those eyes, thus imparting a beautiful meaning to beauty itself.

She looks back at you, and amidst deep silence you say so much of the unspoken love, of how badly you could give up anything just for her to keep looking in your eyes like that. But just in that moment, she would look away, close her eyes and smile, and you ask yourself if your thoughts were too loud, for the redness of her lips and the pink of her cheeks say much more than the richest of literature could ever even dream to convey. You want to believe that she feels you, that she loves the way you hold her hand and tell her how beautifully carved her fingers are, and how every entity of His creation could envy the softness of her skin, and much more, of the softness within.

And while you’re sitting down looking at her, wishing you could freeze that moment and make it stay like that forever and maybe even more, the hard unemotional reality strikes you painfully and you know she would have to leave you now, leave you alone on those steps where every moment would make you look up at Him and wish you lived that lifetime again and again just to be with her for that one single moment. And so you’d promise yourself to live every remaining quantum of time with her to the fullest, to softly caress her, to envelop her in your love compassionate and intense. But she would suddenly feel it and run so away far, hiding her spectacular aura behind the frame of her colourful spectacles, unintentionally softening more against you, in a way touching you strongly inside in a strangely painful manner which makes you smile on the outside but burn deep down. The lips would bid goodbye, but impossible it would be for the spirit to detach. But just then, a realization dawns upon you as you embrace her for the last time - a part of your stays with her and a part of her stays with you. Forever.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Surrender. Let it Go. Give it up.

Passport - April 1st 2013
GMAT - April 4th 2013
HBS 2+2 - April 8th 2013

Rejected - April 22nd 2013 9:34 PM

"He can dream a bigger dream for me, for you, than you can ever dream for yourself. When you've worked as hard, done as much, and tried, and strived, and given, and plead, and bargained, and hoped.
Surrender.
When there is all that you can do, and there is nothing left for you to do.
Give it up.
Give it up to that thing that is greater than yourself. And let it then become a  part of the flow."

Friday, March 29, 2013

29-03-2013

HE
Living that moment of purest contradiction, she stood there looking deep into my eyes. Her soft hair traced the untouched curve of her face, her smile revealed the tempting softness of her lips. Impossible it is to stay away, to not look at her, to lock that temptation, which makes me wish I could touch those lips, feel her as she was my sketch - a part of me.

SHE
There he stood in front of me as we mounted the skies and beheld the serene the enamoring stillness of the spectacle that welcomed us.
The breeze playing with my disheveled hair as I stared in the depth of his eyes and felt the rhythm of life that filled his entire being with a subtle touch...In that moment the absolute seemed close!

Sunday, March 10, 2013

The Child Inside Me

Growing up is tough. But then who has a choice?
I still remember how excited I used to be as a kid, watching young men all suited up, returning from their jobs, meanwhile I fantasized about the day when I would have my own job, and could buy my own Video games, chocolates and Watch movies without bugging Mum and Papa.
Guess what. The time has come!

But something is wrong. Yes, I don't want to buy Video games, chocolates or movie tickets. I'm concerned about GPA, about Recommendations, about 10, 15, 20 LPA jobs, about the dreaded Office coffee, the Boss' grim expressions, and blah blah...but that's not what this blog is about.

This blog is about keeping the kid inside you alive. Learning to be crazy, carefree, silly and idiotic at times! Yes, it won't hurt at all! Follow your instinct, maybe help someone in need, fall in love, fall out of love, and do that over and over again till you know the real meaning of being loved - just like you learnt how to ride a cycle after multiple cycles of 'drive-then-fall-then-drive-then-fall'.

I know I loved being a kid. Being pampered by Mum and Papa. And then beaten up too :D
And I know I cannot bring those times back. But at times, I can travel non-existent wormholes and shed those layers and layers of sophistication and maturity. I can keep myself alive :)

It's lovely being a kid. To discover the little Superman, or the Barbie doll inside you. And to keep it alive. Forever.










Photographs - With my little cousin in Bareilly - 2011 :)

- K

Saturday, March 2, 2013

Journey through hell - Tatkal Passport Application

28/02/2013

I don't intend to infuse either literary excellence or reader appeal in this particular blog entry. This is going to be solely a public diary entry, upon request from people who felt I should trap this day somewhere. I would inform you beforehand, that it's going to be pretty elaborate :-)

For the purpose of giving TOEFL and GMAT, I needed my Passport under Tatkaal quota. A friend of mine who has applied for the same gave me necessary instructions about getting Annex F and I prepared, former from the Institute Admin Office, while the latter from a local Notary.
I woke up early at 6, prepared with all required documents, except the proof of my Permanent Address. I went to the Admin Office sharp at 8 for Annex F. The guard informed me that the office would open at 10, and so I happened to visit my classes for a couple of hours. At around 11, I visited the office and straight away went towards the stationary room where the document had to be printed. I happened to know the person in-charge there, thanks to the interactions while preparing news releases for the IIT conversion struggle. He helped me get the document ready swiftly, with just one step of data verification left.
I was asked to get the data verified from a clerk who sits on ground floor. I was aware that with no proof of permanent address, it was going to be tough, but the reality was going to test me for the limits.
The clerk told me that I HAD to bring some proof, without which he could not approve. He advised me to get my permanent address updated from the bank, and then give him the bank statement.
I went to the bank and tried to get information as to how updating of the address could be possible. The clerk at bank informed me that banks would only rely on information which is based on a proof by a bank document. Even if I attach any declaration, I need to use the signature from account statement to get the signature verified. This was almost impossible for me, as under this logic, I had to request my landlord to write an application of declaration and his SBI bank account statement (assuming he had his account there!). I called my dad up, and when no solution seemed probable, I rushed back to Admin Office and informed the clerk about the same.
I requested him to give me permission for the meantime, and I would provide figure out a way to get the proof within a week. He made his stand humbly clear, and told me nothing could be done without the documents. I requested him to look into any provision that was possible. He asked me to wait for 10 mins, while he thought about how I could get the approval.
After about 5 mins, he told me about a way that would make the approval possible - getting a letter forwarded by the department head; the letter mentioning mention of my permanent address.
While I drove towards my department, I felt this was almost impossible, as they would again need some proof of permanent address at the department. But this time, while talking to my parents on the phone, I figured out a way. Taking permission from the HOD, I got my mother's internet bill printed out, and attached it with the application. This was accepted by the HOD, and he forwarded my application. Once, I got the application, I rushed towards the Admin Office and got the approval from the clerk, thanking him a million times. The final set of signature was done, and my Annex F was ready. The time was around 1:30PM now.
I went to my hostel to have lunch, and verified what was next in the to-do list.
After the lunch was over, I biked towards the Notary I happened to know, because he had made my Anti-Ragging Affidavit a couple of years back. I reached his office somehow, and he told me it was not possible that day as the electricity was not there, and he could not print the Annex document. I asked him if there was some other way, and if I could get the document printed somewhere else. He thought for a while, picked up his phone and called up a particular shopkeeper, asking him whether there was electricity there. Thankfully, the person replied in the positive, and I was asked to rush to the shop and get the document typed and printed before the electricity went away. The paper on which the document had to be made was the Notary paper, and I held it between my lips as I biked towards the shop. Once the printout was taken, I went back to the Notary, paid him the money and asked about directions for the Passport office.
The way was clear in my mind, and I thought I'll keep asking people for directions while I drive. When I approached the road crossing near IP Vijaya mall, I saw a huge traffic jam. Tactically driving, I reached upto  the front of the traffic, only to realise that I had to find some alternate route, all thanks to the religious procession blocking the way, and was supposed to take a couple of hours to complete.
I turned around, and sought alternate ways to reach to the destination. On the way, I met two gentlemen on the bike who helped me with the route, and I followed them for a while. My bike's chain was very loose, and on the way I had to stop about 4-5 times for getting the chain back on the driving gear.
Next, I kept on asking people around for directions, as I had to reach before 5PM.
On reaching the passport office, I rushed inside and stood near one of the counters. They were really cluttered with people, and I had to squeeze my way into one of them for asking the officer about the steps I had to follow. The building is a beautiful blue glass structure, and appears out of place relative to the surrounding very old shops. Even the overall processes were digitalized partially, and I felt an end coming to my worries. The officer on the counter told me that one additional printout was required, which had a bar code that they needed to proceed with the application. I just had to find a neighbouring shop and get that sheet printed. But just then, the person sitting on the right of this officer saw my Annex F, and said that it was not valid and would not work. I insisted on the fact that my friend had successfully applied with the same document. He told me to wait while he would confirm the same from the higher level officer in the Passport Office - the APO. When he returned, he handed over to me a sheet, and asked me to go back to college and show it to the Registrar, saying that it was not allowed under normal provisions for him to issue the Annex F. I was shocked, as I had not expected this, and I continuously insisted that the application be submitted the same day. Getting Annex F from any other authority was almost an impossibility, and so I stuck to my request. I was made to talk to the APO, and he repeat the exact same words of the Officer. I assured him that the message would reach the concerned people, but if he could forward the application, a big problem for me would be solved. I told him how urgently I required it. After a bit of thought, he asked me to come up to his room and meet him. I climbed up the ladders onto his room and stood near his desk while he examined my documents, while mentioning how problematic it can be for him if a special inquiry asks him the reason for this special permission.
He said that this would be the last application he approves, and no further requests should come to him. He asked me to come next day in the morning.
I did the same, and through a very formal strict procedure, my application for passport was finally submitted.
It was hell of an experience, and the first one for me, where tackling with a simple thing like getting a Tatkaal passport became just a very difficult and tiring experience!
But at the end of the day, the story had a happy ending. Now, I'm just waiting for the day when the passport arrives. I know this seems funny, but trust me - I really want to thank all those people who voluntarily helped me, because one thing I realized at the end of the day is - in official matters, there is no parameter for emotion. It is strict, harsh and formal.
But then....THIS is life.

K

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Voice of the Naga

'UNBELIEVABLE' was what came to my mind when I met these two babas on Shivala ghat today while watching the famous 'sun rise by the river'.



It all began when an old man started asking me about how much time would it take if he goes to Sarnath. I quickly judged from his hindi, that he was not a local, as he sounded very similar to how people back in my hometown speak.
He then talked for a while in English, and I was surprised because it was difficult to expect a baba to be so fluent. We talked a little while and I asked him about his life.
He was born in Kashmir, and has been roaming all around India since his childhood. He knows so many languages, it baffled me when he started speaking Bengali as fluently as any Bengali. He talked about how dramatic some babas by the ghats would be...smoking weed, talking like they were some spiritual geniuses. He said it was just a part of their lifestyle....the actual learning is internal and absolute. It was impossible to externally portray it, and being naked, white ash all over the body, smoking weed was just a way of life for them.
He told me his name was Pagal Baba (Mad baba), because he always remained cheerful. And others would say that only a mad man can always stay happy! He would find a reason to laugh in anything I would say, and I myself could not stop marveling at this Superhuman standing before me.....with the Superpower to stay happy!
Just then joined another baba who looked like he was relatively new in the trade. He asked me what I was doing, and when I told him about my University and the job I was going to do, he smiled and told me that he was a B.Tech. himself. Electronics and Communication. Had worked in IBM Bangalore before becoming a baba. That was 12 years back.
The Pagal baba would take rounds around the B.Tech. baba, and I figured out it was to give him a curse! For fun of course. :D They are humans too, very obviously. And humans need 'work-and-play' to NOT be a 'dull boy'. :-)
He told me how fortunate I was to get an opportunity to study in a city like Varanasi - the way to the ultimate knowledge was a fusion of Spirituality and Science. And we were the lucky gems who were gifted with the opportunity to study engineering in the Religious capital of India.
He talked about how people misinterpret religion as something they have to follow. We should always look for meaning behind what we pursue. One can read in the news about Kumbh mela being the largest gathering in the world, but how many people who go to Kumbh really know its significance?
It's an opportunity to wash off all sins and negativity, and be gifted with a new beginning.
He also explained the significance about the enormous fore-head wide tilak that they apply. The central point of the forehead is considered to be where God resides. And as we keep temples very clean and decorated, it is essential that we decorate the forehead too. As a way of showing respect to the Almighty.
He also emphasized on not being artificial with God, and being comfortable with Spirituality. One should be the best one can, and in that he would always be at peace with God. No regrets, no guilt.
As my Russian guests arrived, I made them both meet the baba, and suddenly realised how well groomed they were with flirting. :D Yeah, trust me on this!
I was surprised at how sensible all of what I heard sounded, and a sudden realization struck that all the engineering we have learned so far has no meaning without knowing the meaning behind those underlying layers - a necessary fusion of Science and Spirituality - non-existent without each other.
Think about it :-)


K

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Role Model 1 - Mumbai Dabbawalas



The whole Dabbawala system works between houses and offices, and concerns the lunch in a ‘dabba’ that there dabbawalas carry from houses to the respective destination offices.


We were introduced to the scale by various statistics being brought into the picture – 4 lakh tiffin transactions in less than 4 hours. The people involved are mostly uneducated, and lack any management or technical skills. Then how do they manage such a complicated process flow? This is what their head, representing the Dabbawala community, talked about that day.


Each dabba shifts hands approx 6 times during a single transaction. The Organization Structure is composed of a multitier system, were each person higher in the pyramid is responsible for the team under him. The only modes of transport are Mumbai Local trains, and the cycles which the dabbawalas use.
Astonishingly true, the error rate is 1 in 16 million. A 99.99 percent efficiency on the six sigma scale. The cost of service is Rs. 500 to Rs. 550 per month from a customer. They stand for NO STRIKE, and earn about Rs. 9000 to Rs. 10000 a month in average.


All dabbawalas share an identity mark – the white cap, which makes it easy for them to coordinate and work in a team. Their moto is ‘Work is Workship’ and they truly live up to it, imposing fines like Rs. 50 fine for not wearing the cap, Rs. 1000 fine for alcohol consumption during duty hours, and so on. The discipline is very formally followed.


We were informed about their Unique coding system, and as the dabbawala hilariously stated – that sometimes the uneducated ones are more efficient at work than us, the educated crowd.
Overall, the session was hilarious, and we enjoyed it to the fullest. The key observation by many of us was that despite being uneducated, they held pride in their trade, and with remarkable efficiency, they made an impossible-seeming task possible, that too with 0% Tech support.

We still have a lot to learn from the Dabbawala uncleji!

Day 1 - December 24th 2012

My JY confirmation mail came in December first week, just after my college vacations had begun. Even then I was not completely sure of what the so-called ‘Yatra’ could make possible for me. So I just decided to ‘jump’ into the opportunity.


I de-boarded my flight on Monday morning as I land in Mumbai for the first time. As instructed, I took a cab to Tata Institute of Social Sciences. Coming from a foggy Delhi to a heated up Mumbai was quite a jhakta.
As I enter the venue, a horde of new faces were all around me – 450 young people from all over India – from villages and cities, ranging from farmers to professionals working with reputed Investment Banks, different cultures, different languages, but one thing was evidently common – the passion to learn, the urge to bring about change, the potential to be the foundation stones of a new India. I had to get registered after the luggage was tagged, and then we were asked to find our Group members. These ‘Groups’ of ‘strangers’ were Yatris strategically selected and placed together in Cohorts with Facilitators as coordinators and a collection of Cohort became the group. I got ‘Group I’ and very soon I was in a crowd of new faces – each one as excited and pumped up as me.
Each group is a combination of 3 cohorts (2 Boys and 1 Girls). Each cohort is composed of 7 people – 6 Yatris and 1 Facilitator. There are total 21 groups.


While people were still registering, we combined 2 groups and started introducing ourselves with just a single thing we want us to be remembered as. This was much fun, and we managed to mint out wacky nick-names for almost all of us. I soon realized that these 450 people are not ordinary young men and women. Each one has his own story to share, and a dream to chase. The diversity prevails in their stories too. With some of them you could relate very strongly, but others would seem too hard to digest.


The very much awaited lunch followed. And I must admit that the management by JY team was awesome right from Day 1, and the lunch went smooth with people still introducing themselves while having a bite of the delicious food.
We were then asked to get seated in the Convention Center, where the Induction Ceremony would take place, followed by Team Introductions, General Guideline discussion, Cultural programs, and the Special take of the day – Mumbai Dabbawalas.


At this point, I must bring an important point up. From about 19000 registrations, 450 top selected candidates got to pursue JY 2012. The selections were not random, but based on a careful selection pattern, gauging NOT ONLY entrepreneurial spirit, but also the passion to bring about a change. So it was NOT individual play, but a team effort. And that was one of the key issues brought about in the discussion – India has sufficient funds and resources, and there is no dearth of ideas for sure. So what we miss is team to work with. And thanks to the Yatra, our teamwork began from Day 1. And this was highlighted very successfully by the Dabbawalas!
The initial Induction sessions were formal introduction to the program, and hence, very detailed (and too boring too). The JY volunteers and Core Team looked as energetic as ever and I partially envied their vigor, which was very evidently missing from the crowd, where every second person seemed to doze off. Stories were shared by the Organizing team members, and ‘Thank you’s were given, after which the Orientation finally got over.


The next session was a BIG surprise. The crowd was awakened by dancing onto the Gangnam style! – A warm-up exercise as mentioned by them. ‘Yaaro Chalo’ was played for the first time next, and we tried to match our steps with those of the Choreographer. Each little step symbolized our vision – beautifully portrayed in moving art. Next, some volunteers talked about their own experience in a beautiful musical setting.
With this we were told that a session with the first Role model would follow now – none other than the Dabbawalas!